Paradise within my mind

レスビアン物語

2011-11-16T03:18:00.000-06:00

I love to use "monogatari" lately, haven't I? Ahh well... :P I'm trying to write a short story called "Barefoot Goddess" (which is the translation of "裸足の女神"). Yet, I placed this story on a beach... Don't know why... But the story takes place on a beach. (lol) An example... (I call this chapter "Chihiro". Don't know why. :P)

<<Tonight was just like any other summer night.

It was slightly warm with a cool breeze and a full moon, gleaming over the waves on the beach.

It was a beautiful site, viewing it from my window.

At that moment, I decided to take a walk around the beach.

As I was walking on the sand, I noticed a girl standing near the water.

The breeze gently waving her long, strawberry blonde hair and her white summer dress.>>

I'm stumped at this point... It's like it came to me and it disappeared. o_o; Sometimes I feel like I should write this story as if I'm reading a yuri manga! XDD That way, it'll come easily to me because these scenarios happen all the time in most yuri and yaoi mangas! XDDD My question is this... "What am I going to do next?" Should I give this girl blue eyes or brown eyes? lol Ahh well... Exciting news!! 2012 is going to be the year that my childhood comes back to haunt me! XDD (I kid... :P It's already doing that.) NEW AYU ALBUM IN 2012!!! Goody! ^^ I just have a feeling that she might release one single before the album's release. I mean, hell! If Inaba Koshi can successfully pull it off, then I believe ayu can pull it off too. :) Even if Koshi and ayu collaborated, it would be a dream come true for me! ^^ But, with ayu, you never know what you might get. It's like Christmas with Easter eggs with her! XDD Although, some new B'z material or a new Koshi solo single wouldn't hurt either! :P Just sayin'... Oh well.. I'd better take my dorkness out of this blog! さあ！じゃあね～♪

So many ideas!! X_X;;

2011-09-19T01:58:00.001-05:00

Wow!! I came up with an idea for a lesbian movie.. But it's Korean related. ^^; I wonder if that's a good idea? lol

"Title: Lonely Rose

Korean title: 외로운 로즈

Characters:

Haneul Kyeong (경하늘)- She's an inspiring photographer who sees the beauty in life. She's currently going to art school to major in photography. She's friends with Hyeon, Jeong, and Iseul. She also has a crush on Iseul without realizing that Iseul also likes her. (Age 22)

Iseul Kwon (권이슬)- Kind of shy, she fell for Haneul when they were in high school, but didn't tell then. She felt like she failed to tell her how she truly felt until Haneul confessed her love for her. (Age 22)

Tae-Yong Kyeong (경태용) The older brother of Haneul, he watches over her like a guardian angel. (Age 26)

Hyeon Namkung (남궁현)- The older sister of Jeong. She is also friends with Haneul since high school. (Age 24)

Jeong Namkung (남궁정)- The younger sister of Hyeon, friends with both Iseul and Haneul, and an aspiring singer. (Age 22)

Yong Koo (구용)- Hyeon's crush. He goes to Haneul's art school. He's an aspiring artist and like to make comics in his spare time. (Age 25)

Dae-Jung Dahn (단대중)- He's interested in Haneul and doesn't suspect that he wants to have sex with her until he starts advancing on her. He's referred to by Yong as a Grade A douchebag. (Age 25)

Chol Kim (김철)- Dae-Jung and Tae-Yong's best friend, he tells Dae-Jung that it's a bad idea to chase after Haneul because he knows that she's not interested in him since she shared her love confession for Iseul during high school. He graduated with Haneul, Iseul, Hyeon, and Jeong. He's also in love with Jeong. (Age 22)"

It's an idea, but I can dream! Right? lol Also... Shame on me for not updating this!! D: Just thought I'd make this blog entry short! (^_^) The title was inspired by the song LONELY by 2NE1! :) Such a pretty song!! (´▽｀)♪ Well.. 내일까지 나중에 보자!

long time no see

2011-07-24T07:12:00.001-05:00

Wow.. Has it seriously been 3 months since my last entry? SHAME ON ME!!!! (´Д｀。) I also didn't get the chance to go see B'z (my favorite Japanese rock band)! Shame on me for that too! Oh well... Tonight, I'll see them live on UStream (that's if the internet is acting correctly). I curse the fact I have satellite internet... Oh well! XDD I Love C'mon!!! ♥♥♥ Seriously... I made an "ayu meets B'z" video out of the title song. It's a wonderful summer video (not that there's anything wrong with the original video)! :D That makes the wait for ayu's mini album "FIVE" that much more interesting! (lol) The more I see descriptions of ayu's videos, the more interested on the official release I am. :) I'm not hoping on the album being good... Instead, I'm just interested so that I'm not so hopeful that I end up disappointed. Although, I'm interested in an English version of SPLASH! XDD It's just so odd to see that on the set list... O.o DANGAN is another interesting one... DAMMIT, KOSHI!!! o(>< )o *mutters* you suck... (I'm kidding! I'z luvs de Koshi! ^^♥♥) Yes.. That was written on purpose. :P I was being goofy... Now it's time for Yuri-chan to hit the sack! LUV U GUYS!!! 明日またね♪

愛しいひかる

2011-04-29T01:16:00.000-05:00

Dear Hikaru,

Why in the HELL did you break up with Matt and go back out with him in 2009?! He treated you like shit in 2008 and not to mention that he's a fucking bitch!

Done with this mini rant... Re-reading some of my blog entries makes me wonder why I would go back out with the guy that got on my nerves so much! Some of the times, I wish I could go back in time and bitch slap myself in the back of the head! "WHY, HIKARU?!" "Who are you?" "Yuri, your inner voice, stoopid!" "What do you want?" "To tell you not to go back out with Matt!!" "Why? He said he wouldn't be my frie-" "DON'T FALL FOR THAT SHIT!!! All he's doing is bribing for your love and he's jealous because you're more popular with the girls than he is!" "Would that explain why he's acting like that?" "Yep" "Go figure..." So yeah... That and I'm not looking forward to my sister's engagement party. I would be happy for her if I didn't hate the guy so much. :\ He's a decent guy, but DAMN! He's such an idiot and a loudmouth! I mean, I know I can be a bit of a loudmouth, but it's like the volume never goes down... Kind of like a TV being too loud. (-_-;;) It's also getting to the point where my family and I aren't seeing eye to eye when it comes down to the issue about "the gay". My mom thinks they're shoving it down our throats and blah blah blah. I think that it's no different than Christians shoving THEIR beliefs down MY god damn throat!!! It's like... "Daaamn, even my own mother doesn't preach to the choir. o_o;;" But yeah... I guess that's it for now! lol またね☆

Rise like the phoenix you are!! ~不死鳥の歌~

2010-12-31T03:58:00.002-06:00

WOW!! It's been a while since I've written on here! O_O;; I've been too occupied with twitter that I forgot to update my ACTUAL blog! lol OKAY!!! Let's review what happened to me this year! :) Freak snow storm kept me at home for 2 weeks, then the great flood of Middle Tennessee happened in my own fuckin' backyard! My backyard was a river for about an hour or two! lol Broke up with my ex-boyfriend over Christmas Break last year (but it counts into this year, I guess)! :P Been getting A LOT of unwanted attention from horny men! XDDD Still trying to rebuild my self-esteem up from 2 years of being pushed down over and over again! I've come to a conclusion that I hate this state with a fiery passion!! :P I see a lot of pessimists and hypocrites in this state, it makes me wanna chunk a rock at them! >.< Real fast.. Love Hadou, Own Hadou! I need to own Shian!!! It's pure perfection from Koshi!!! My favorite Hadou songs: The Morning Call, Akai Ito, Fushichou! Also.. ayu got twitter! :D WELL! Happy New Year!! (^o^)/ 『百合ちゃんから♥』

The School Blues

2010-09-14T14:30:00.001-05:00

Yeah... I started school at the end of August and the first I do is fuck around with a guy! >.< Boy, did that fling end pretty quickly... T_T So apparently, he's ignoring me and playing D&D all the FUCKIN' TIME!!!! I mean... Does this guy have no life? But that could also mean that I might of fallen for him. DAMMIT, HIKARU! He's not worth your time at all! If he's gonna blow you off like yesterday's trash, then so be it! ANYWAY... I guess he's also the reason I've been losing my head, I suppose... ^^; I just need to forget him and move on... But anyway! Enough ranting! Let's talk about the postive things! :D Like my mom coming home last week after a week's worth of delay! @_@ That and new releases... Like Koda Kumi's Suki de Suki de Suki de/Anata Dake ga, Ayu's crossroad and Koshi's Hadou! ^_^ I like 5 songs from Hadou!!! :D One of my favorites is Fushichou (meaning Phienox). ^^ It's like my favorite song from Shian is Honno! =D Imagine that!!! (lol) Ayu's "crossroad" has a BSB feeling to it and it's kind of nostalgic... :) I can't say much about Suki de Suki de Suki de because I haven't heard the whole song yet! ^^;;; But yeah... *rant mode* The one thing that pisses me off more than jackasses that don't give a shit about anything is jackasses who blow you off like yesterday's trash!! *rant mode done* Gomen, minna-san! ^^;; So yeah... I'll end this little entry for now... JYAA NE! :D

☆Moonlight Sonata☆

2010-07-07T02:04:00.001-05:00

こんにちは！！！ :D 元気ですか?? I may have found my girl! But the road's a little bumpy (maybe because she's Earth and I'm Water)! XDD But yeah... We may live an hour or so away from each other... But that doesn't mean we don't love each other any less! :) But that crush on the other girl is still there nonetheless. :\ What does that mean to me? Well, I move on! :D That's all I can really do. (^_^) Also, Koshi's coming out with a new solo album!!!! (^O^) I hope the cover looks as good as the promo picture! :D But yeah... The DVD contents look AWESOME!!! =D The album will include "Akai Ito" from Kekkaishi (an anime I'm watching at the moment)! ^^ YAAAY!! I love that song too! (lol) Moving on... I saw "The Last Airbender" and I have to say... I wasn't too impressed with it! It's not a bad movie, but maybe I was too busy picking out the details of what went where! (lol) Other than that, my weekend was pretty pathetic! lol All I did was sleep, sleep, sleep! DX Sad, huh? ^^; But today was SUUCH a busy day! Helping Christina with corn, then getting a tire for her, and getting Hannah! @_@;;; Busy busy busy!!! Though... I found an interesting story for all of my nick-names! ^^ Hikaru represents the nostalgic side of me, Yuki represents the cutesy side of me and Yuri represents the elegant side of me... That sounds crazy, doesn't it? (lol) But it's really just pieces of my personality. (^_^) Oh well!!! Time to end this blog! Until tomorrow, じゃあね!!! (^O^)/

Girl crushes and so forth...

2010-04-05T13:51:00.000-05:00

Ok!! The good news is that my mom is emailing me!!!! :) It makes me cry tears of joy, knowing in my mind that she's alright! (^_^) I was SOOO worried about her that I had sleepless nights (well, not to lie about it in that way)! Speaking of tears, I'm leaking! (lol) But yeah... Girl crushes when the girl you're crushing isn't THAT interested in you in the first place makes you a little sad inside. But what can you do? I think the answer to that is to move on to someone else... I guess! (lol) Either way, I can't wait for Rock 'n' Roll Circus to get here!!!! (@_@;;;;) But until then, I'll be getting more and more giddy over it! XDD Either way, GIRL CRUSHES SUCK!!!! DX But that's what I get for falling for them in the first place, I suppose. :P I guess that's my fair share of ranting for the moment! じゃあね!!! (^O^)/

炎の色

2010-03-11T04:09:00.001-06:00

Hey hey hey!!! What's up??? :D I'm listening to BAD COMMUNICATION -ULTRA Pleasure Style- from the B'z The Best "ULTRA" Pleasure album! (^_^) It has a hint of "Hana" from the A Song for xx era! :) Maybe because Ayu loves that song too?? XDD But I don't know... MOVING ON!! The one thing that pissed me off tonight was the fact that Matt was screaming at the TV again! He did it once while I was sitting beside him, playing "Sims 3"! Either way, he had a moment when he started to remind me of his mom! It just wasn't a fun few hours! :( But I'm not going into the reason why he started to remind me of his mom the entry time... It's just not cool. OK!!! ^^; OMG!!! I finally got a collaboration video done!!! YAAAAAAAY!! It's not the best one, but it's still pretty cool, nonetheless. ^^; The song that I put it to is the song I was listening to earlier! XDD HEY!!! I love this song, dammit!!! (>.<) But would it kill Ayu to put out ONE song called "Magic"??? XDD It's just one girl's dream... ^^;; DAMN! I need to get to sleep! It's already past 4 in the morning and I'm yawning... Ok! おやすみございます! (^O^)/

It's a New Year and a New Decade! :D

2010-01-03T04:11:00.001-06:00

Happy New Years, everyone! <333 It's officially a new year (well... 2 days later)! lol But the weird thing about it... People said in 2009 that the world is going to end in 2012 (which, btw, is 2 years away), right? It's been thrown around... :) But that doesn't mean that it'll end! It usually means that there will be a new age! :) Just like Y2K! (^_^) I mean... People panicked about that too! XDD Yeah and I'm rambling about it while I'm still awake at 4 AM! lol But moving on from all of this mambo-jumbo! XD I got the most awesome presents!!! =D For Christmas from my mom, I got a Wii, a scarf, some gloves, and a $50 gift card for Bath and Body Works! ^^ To be honest, the best gift I have ever gotten from my dad is that $30 gift card for the Roxy! But hey, on everything else, he was trying! :) The most awesome present that I have EVER gotten for Christmas was a chance to spend it with my mom! (^_^) I couldn't ask for anything better than that! (^O^) I will, however, be sad when she leaves... :( But I'll try to do the best I can to take care of the house while she's gone. (^_^) Ah... I'd better get to sleep before I doze off here! (lol) 明日は。。。じゃあね! (^O^)/

What I can never get...

2009-12-22T15:25:00.000-06:00

HI! (^O^)/ Merry Christmas!!! XDD Ok ok... What is it with some guys on the internet and real life thinking that I'm soo "sexy"? Hm? That's always a curiosity of mine... I'm not sexy! I'm just me! :P Beautiful girls are sexy! I'm just pretty. :P Actually... I'm not even that pretty. I'm just cute! <3>.<) Ahh... I'm laying on my bed, listening to Christmas music. It's pretty much 3 days away! (lol) Oh well... Better cut this short! じゃあね! (^o^)/

衝動的心臓

2009-09-22T14:18:00.000-05:00

こんにちは、皆さん!!! 元気ですか?? I'm listening to "ultra soul" by B'z and it's FREAKEN AMAZING!! <33>O<) So I'll be leaving now! じゃあね!!! (^O^)/

Pastel Colors

2009-09-12T03:49:00.000-05:00

HIIIIIIIIIII!!! Long time, no see!!! :D AAAH!!!! I commented on Hiroki Maekawa's blog and I totally embarrssed myself!!!! (////o////) DO I HAVE NO SHAME?????? (lol) But in all seriousness, the guy reminds me SOO much of YUI, but with a touch of Kobukuro! :) Maybe I'm saying that because I'm listening to YUI's "Can't Buy My Love" album! (lol) But then again, I must be hyper because of how late it REALLY is here!!! XDD I need to update my blog more often!! (@_@) I am WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY behind!!! Well yeah... I started school a week or so ago... It's been hell. NAH! I'm kidding! It was GREAT!!! (For the most part) ^^;;; My hair is SHORT now!!! OMG!! My sister cut it last week before I went to see Wicked in Nashville! <3 Ok, how come I didn't mention that on my Japanese blog?? OH YEAH!! Because I simply forgot! XDD
But yeah... I'm gonna make this blog short! :P Soo... じゃあ!! (^O^)/

Star satsification! (^O^)b

2009-08-27T00:51:00.000-05:00

こんにちは~~~~!!!! 元気ですか?? AH! I HAVEN'T UPDATED MY BLOG!!!!!! DX Shame on me!!!!! (weep) Is it me or does "Believe" by 倖田來未 sound like that song by Gackt? DAMMIT! I forgot the name of it... But it sounds very Gackt-like! :P But anyway!!! I've gotten school taken care of and I'll be SET for this semester! =D OH YEAH! I finally know what it is... It SLIGHTLY reminds me of 野に咲く花のように and 月の詩 by Gackt! (^_^) But yeah! I was REALLY tired this morning! (-_-;;;) But my mood drastically changed as soon as I went to talk to Mr. Lee! (lol) Then everything was good from there! (^_^) But DAMN! I am EXHAUSTED!!!!! (X___X;) That reminds me... I need to watch the rest of the TRICK tour! But I want the DVD!! DX Damn you, avex! You make me wanna buy the stuff I can't afford! (>.<) I need to get a new banner for my blog VERY soon!! D: It's my theme all in one if I change the banner! :P But yeah.. I'm heading out.. BAI! (^O^)/

走れ!

2009-07-06T02:08:00.000-05:00

こんにちは～～～♪♪　元気ですか?? MAN! I am soo addicted to this one song by Koda Kumi called 「走れ!」. It's a summer rock song with a touch of funk in it! =D The video to this song is AWESOME! It has a nice 90's feeling to it! Well... That's the way I see it! （笑）Actually... There's another favorite of mine is "ECSATSY"! <33 Talk about a sexy song! The video...well... It's sexy! (^^) Kind of reminded me of "Because of You" by 浜崎あゆみ. SLIGHTLY! XDD Eh... I don't blog often. So that's a bummer! D: I don't know... I've been so distracted lately that I forget to blog! D: But it's still the same ol' shit I've been dealing with before I broke up with my boyfriend. Men... Am I right? But I'll end this blog. (^_^) 明日また。。。じゃあね!　と。。。バイバイ!!!!! (^O^)/

悪夢

2009-06-25T12:46:00.000-05:00

こんにちは～! 元気ですか?　WOAH! I had a scary dream!!! O_O; I had a dream that Matt was so obnoxious that I had no choice but to dump him! Hopefully, it doesn't get that way! D: But then again, he's been acting like a brat... It's scary!!! (T^T) But I hate to say it... But he's beginning to act worse than me! That's some scary shit right there!! D: But if it DOES get to the point where he's acting obnoxious, I probably will dump him. It's a scary image... But thankfully, it's just a dream! XDD A scary one at that... O_O It was almost like a peek into the future. But moving on!!! :D I'm being a lazy bitch again.. (@_@) 何しろ!　I wanna cook something different! DX But I'm just being random... So... Let's call this a short blog (only because I can't think of anything else to write)! DX バイバイ!

禅・心・魂

2009-05-21T00:45:00.000-05:00

こんにちは!　元気ですか? OMG!!! I am SOOOOO sorry!!! (T^T) I've been so busy watching American Idol that I forgot to update! D: BTW, Kris Allen won American Idol! :P Adam was AMAZING this year!! <333 Both of the guys were AWESOME! =D My favorite had already reached Superstar status!!! I mean... WOW!!!!! (O____________O;) American Idol is my guilty pleasure! ;D Moving on!!! Umm... FYI, if you can't read what my title says or don't understand it... It's "Zen, Kokoro, Tamashii"... Translations? "Zen (or relaxation), Heart, and Spirit" (^-^)V I loooove Japanese! XDDD Hey! That's a great name for Adam Lambert's debut album! :D "Zen, Heart, and Spirit"! :) AWESOME!!! I'm gonna fly! ^^ また明日。。。じゃあね!

MTAC

2009-03-31T01:12:00.000-05:00

Oh jeez! Ummm... MTAC is trotting around the corner and the two voice actors that I've been wanting to meet since 2007 (I believe) are coming to MTAC!!!!! =D But the thing is... I'm a nervous wreck!!!! >.<>///<) I'll get Jeff Nimoy and Sonny Strait to sign my craptastic drawing! :P HEY!!! I know what to bring to MTAC!!! =D My video camera and my digital camera! :D GENIUS!!! :) That and bring "We Shadows"! :D (That's always a plus!) (~_^)b The video camera is for... the random stuff! XDD The digitial camera is for taking pictures! :) Well... ONWARDS!!! To the left... <.<;

What you were waiting for...

2009-03-14T11:12:00.001-05:00

HIIII!! :D Matt and I are going back out... AGAIN!! (lol) I was REALLY afraid of losing him... But somehow, we bounced back together! XDDD According to Matt, there were some obstacles in our way... But somehow we conquered them! :D Just for the hell of it, I feel like "find Carmen Sandiego"! XDDDDDD But I haven't updated in DAAAAAAAAAAYS!!! (X_X;) I saw the PV previews for NEXT LEVEL and I'm totally amazed by NEXT LEVEL! Sparkle... WELL ummm.... that's another story!! XDD Curtian call looks interesting! :) But other than that, I CAN'T WAIT FOR MY COPY!!!! ヾ(@^▽^@)ﾉ Ummm...

This is what I'm getting, btw! :)

WISH ME LUCK FOR THE NEXT FEW YEARS!!!!! :) バイバイ!　(^∇^)ﾉ

Kumi VS misono... Who will win?

2009-03-07T15:34:00.001-06:00

GOOD NEWS, EVERYONE!!!! I just saw the collaboration video between the Koda sisters! :) My thought on it? It was CUUUUTE!!!! <3333

Did I forget to mention that Kuu-chan is sporting a rather hot hairstyle? ;D

Well... More to come later... (^^;) On to the gossip! :D I think that it's eerie that British actress Emily Blunt and American Pop sensation Katy Perry look VERY similar!! (OAO)

Let's take a look...

Do you see it? I saw the similarity on a movie I saw that had Blunt in it called "The Jane Austin Book Club"! ^^ *sight* But I must leave... バイバイ! (^O^)/

Anxious Hearts

2009-03-02T23:56:00.000-06:00

OMG!!!! (@_@) The tracklist AND the 2CD+DVD cover is out!!!! I mean... WOW!!!! Anyway... This is the tracklist for NEXT LEVEL. ^^

01.Bridge to the sky
02.NEXT LEVEL
03.Disco-munication
04.EnergizE
05.Sparkle
06.rollin'
07.GREEN
08.Load of the SHUGYO
09.identity
10.Rule
11.LOVE 'n' HATE
12.Pieces of SEVEN
13.Days
14.Curtain call

COOL!!! :D I'm looking forward to hearing this album and seeing the music videos!!! ^^ One more thing... This is the only cover out...

Madonna much? No no... This is just Ayu! :D I hope the rest of the covers have that unique touch! :) Other than that, I'm done!! I'm REALLY looking forward to NEXT LEVEL! :) えええ。。。じゃあね～!

悲しみの扉

2009-01-24T03:52:00.000-06:00

Men! They're quickly jealous and they overreact too quickly to something you say... At least that's how my friend treated it. I tell the truth and he blows up in my face... It's like... "WTH?" I raised my voice just a little bit and I guess to him, I was blowing up. I'll have to admit, I was ticked that he was jealous of me liking girls. But DUDE!!!!! I guess I was better off without him after all... If he and I were still dating when he overreacted to me like that (like THAT hasn't been done a dozen times), I would of ended it at that time instead of that time when I did. It's not fair! With him, it was never fair... It was almost like my emotions didn't matter. His did matter... After another time he overreacted, I gave up. Literally... I GAVE UP! Why? Because all men overreact to something small... I know women can be that way too. But at least I know what I'm messing with... Men... They're just confusing... Simple as that. I don't know how to handle men... They're a fuckin' different species! >P So... Women are more natural to me. That's why I decided to STAY a lesbian!! I rest my case...

One of the Boys

2009-01-08T09:21:00.001-06:00

HA! I guess my prediction came true after all!!! XDDD I broke up with Matt and I'm gonna move on with my life! :) I KNEW that I was gonna become a lesbian after 2008! (lol) All it would take is for a girl to sweep my feet away (or otherwise)! ;D But YAY ME!!!! :D I finally got the guts to do something that I should of done a long time ago! After all, he was getting on my nerves. *shrug* So... It'll prepare me for a relationship with a woman. (^_^) After all... I'm a lesbian now! *SPARKLE* W00t! Now to also focus on school!!! Seesh... I haven't been doing much of that lately. (UoU);; Well umm... I got a new banner for "Paradise within my mind"! (^O^) It's AYU!!!!! (~O^)v Isn't she pretty in her kimono??? (*O*) But anyway! (lol) Since my mom's going back to Iraq pretty soon, I'll have to do everything myself (including driving)! Geesh... In some weird sense, I'm afraid to drive. But I'm gonna have to in order to take care of myself! がんばれ、光る!!!! I can do it! =D I just need to keep telling myself that! XDD Hmm... That's all! 下会见!!

2012?

2009-01-04T20:11:00.002-06:00

Why do people speculate that the end of the world is 3 years from now? WHY? I heard something different from my mom and uncle... WHY are people speculating 2012 being the year the world when it's 3 fucking years from now???? I don't wanna die when I'm 25 years old! D: Damn... I'm becoming paranoid... But we'll see what happens. :)

HAPPY NEW YEARS!!! (Well... Pretty soon)

2008-12-28T04:13:00.000-06:00

こんにちは～！　WOW!! OMG! I didn't realize that the year is almost over! I mean... WOW!!! I had a good Christmas! Visiting my older brother in Florida near Destin and I got a laptop!! =D Then, my mom mentioned that she "almost" forgot my other Christmas present! XDDD But I think I have an idea what she was gonna get me anyway! :P If not, that'll be ok too! :) But it feels weird... It's December. Yet, it feels like November! XDDDD That's what I get for getting old! X_X; Pretty soon, the release of "Dragonball: Evolution" will be around the corner too!! Just you wait and see!!! Then again... From what I've seen of the traliers, who the cast is and how the story is, it's gonna be decent. I KNEW this was gonna happen anyway... The other thing that sadden me about it is that they changed EVERYTHING about the characters! Rrrr... OK!!! Dragonball Z's live action is gonna be 3-D animation next time!!! It's just not the same with real actors! That way, the voice actors that played the characters in the show will most likely get the chance of voicing the characters!! NO BROLY, PLEASE!!!!!!!!! As much as I love DBZ, that's the ONE character I DON'T want included in DBZ! (You can thank me later, Vic! XDD) Well.. umm... I'm getting tired here. So, I'm getting off! じゃあ！

Unfilled desires

2008-12-02T19:27:00.001-06:00

I have a strange feeling that by the end of the year or in the beginning of 2009, I'm going to become a full-fledged lesbian... Reason why is because I have a desire that isn't fulled yet. I keep wanting a girlfriend, but I can't hurt the one person I love already! I can't just up and leave him!!! It's not like me at all!! Why is it so hard to overcome desires?? Is it? Maybe my heart's telling me something I really want, but I can't get it. D: Am I a closet dyke? In that case, I AM ONE!!!! My boyfriend can see it in my eyes... I wish I was more clear about it...

誕生日おめでとう

2008-11-06T04:29:00.001-06:00

YEAH! Didn't catch that?? My birthday's past!! (lol) I'm 21 now! That means that I can drink!! :D Well... I'm not a fan of alcohol anyway. :P The only difference is that my sister is gonna bug me to do her damn beer run! DX DAMMIT DAMMIT DAMMIT!! Woah! I'm beginning to sound like my mom! XDDD COOL!! (LMAO) Does that mean that I get to join the Army? HELL NO! D< Damn.. ANYWAY!! I had a decent birthday... But, it was a fucked up weekend! BOY, I'LL TELL YA!! My poor mother... She was stressed all week! :( I mean, because she LOST it!!!! O_O Then again... It's thanks to my Grandpa, my bitchy-ass dad, and my whiny-ass older sister of mine! I guess that kind of makes me the good child... Sort of. The only thing that my mom got onto me for was the online shopping spree! Other than that, everybody else stressed her out. I did decide to cancel my order to "時の足音". It wasn't really worth it anyway! :P There are times that I can decide to get some more JPOP stuff! But when my mom really needs money, I'm just gonna stop there. Why do I have a feeling that my JPOP collection is big enough as it is?? XDD I mean... I have 3 alan singles so far, a bunch of Ayu CDs, and more... WOW!!! OK OK!! I'm gonna head on to bed before I pass out at the computer!! (lol) Good Night, Nashville! :)

Ok... WOAH!!! O_O

2008-10-29T02:03:00.000-05:00

I say, "HOLY SHIT!!" When did this happen?? All of the sudden, misono went from weird looking to "HOLY SHIT, she's hot"!!!! What in the hell did I miss???? (@O@) おろおおおお～!! misono... A gravure idol?? Oi! *faints* Ok! To get the slight idea what I'm talking about...

She went from this:

To this:

Maybe this whole idol this is for the best! But that's just my opinion! :) Hopefully, she will stay this way! (^_^) It suits her very well! Did I forget to mention that her and Kumi are hot? (lol) But either way, her going idol is as shocking as Leah Dizon's news! (LOL) I hope misono's happy with this decision! :) Well... Adieu! (^O^)/

Leah Dizon...

2008-10-20T01:46:00.000-05:00

Yeah, she's my idol... Leah Dizon. I have other idols other than her! But, she's the one that sticks out to me the most at the moment! (lol) I adore the woman, but I respect her decision too... I wish I wasn't bisexual sometimes! (cry) I hate that I fall for a woman that I can't get myself. (; ;) She's one of those I can't grasp in my clutches... Since there's nothing else on TV, I'm watching "Pitch Black" on USA Channel! This movie is a good movie!! :) If I become famous in Japan, I might base my first music video around that! XDD Other than that, I can't really follow the same path as Leah. But, I can say that she was an influence in my life! :) Ayu, Kuu, Hikaru, and some other JPOP singers have also influenced me to sing in Japan! But I would have to take up Japanese before hand! Don't ask me why I have to... It's just a precaution for later on. :) In the meanwhile, I DON'T want to end up like Leah! I want to actually KNOW the language before I become famous! But... To the sense that everyone is different... That's all I can say on that matter. ^_^ I still love Leah, but DAMN! I wish she had more common sense! (>.<) I still love her, depise of that. (^-^) Well! It's getting late! I'd better go!! Bai bai! (^O^)/

Claire de Lune

2008-10-09T04:02:00.001-05:00

Piano music... A very soothing form of music! :) It's also used for meditation!! I just also feel bad because I'm too lazy to go to class! That's a bad thing!! D: I'm listening to Pathetique by Beethoven and it's relaxing! :) I need to find my PIN number and withdrawl from German! I'm already failing as it is!! (; ;) Either way, I want to continue singing and doing what I do best! (^_^) My mom noticed that my confidence is falling to the ground... It's only because I'm trying to deal with all of this stress in my life! I guess that's why she pointed out that I've been stressed lately! (lol) Notice anything about my blog title??? It's the name of Debussy's piano piece! ^_^ It's a romantic piece and it's.. interesting!! XDD It's a piece that you can travel down a river on! It's more of a song that you can use to slow-dance to! (^-^) It's very pretty! Then again, it's French after all!! XDD Well... Time to cut this blog short!! See ya later!! (^O^)/

Music....

2008-10-05T03:49:00.001-05:00

Music.. (sigh) I miss it.. I really do! I'm sitting here in my living room, listening to some piano music on my mom's laptop while I'm thinking to myself... "Why in the hell did I ever let go of my biggest passion??" I talked to my mom about it and she said, "Sometimes, you have to have a break from it in order to miss it." Point proven?? (o_o) I think so... Moms are 99% right, ya know!! (laugh) Either way, I'm gonna continue my music studies elsewhere.. The reason for that is because I can't stand the arragonce at APSU!! >.< It reminds me too much of high school! In marching band, it was like a flash back to high school when Justin Satterwhite was caption head of the brass section!! Ugh! I don't wanna go through that again! (rolls eyes) Either way, I was thrown off course when they mentioned that "Music isn't my thing".. WHAT?? Who are you to judge what I am and what I'm not???? Who are you to judge what I do??? It pissed me off and it made me depressed... Music's my passion! That can't be taken away!! (deep breath) Well... I also plan on taking French in the future! (^_^) I couldn't get a good grip of German... At ALL! But yet, I'm writing a German Blog! (laugh) But... I'm heading out for now.. Goodbye!

Just a weird thought...

2008-09-26T14:09:00.000-05:00

Yah know? I had the most interesting idea in mind! (☆｡☆) I was thinking that I could sing a duet with Stephanie Yanez!!! "With what song?" The song I had in mind was "a song is born" by Ayumi Hamasaki!! (*^▽^*) ANYWAY!! It's Friday... A typical Friday here on campus.. (snooze) I first woke up at around 12:30 PM with double vision!! 。(;°皿°) Scary, huh? Then I woke up about 10 minutes after that and my double vision went away! (^O^)/ That was something I only got to experience once!! Kind of like the time that I almost went color blind!!!! O____O That's why everytime I go out into the sun, I wear sunglasses! But I guess I had that one coming to me!! lol It's also Fall and it sure doesn't feel like Fall!! Good God!! It feels more like Summer than anything!! O_O I mean.. COME ON!! It was 83 degrees yesterday! It's currently 81 degrees! I think the daytime temperatures are gonna be the only thing I'm complaining about!! XDD But I had to cancel my order for "My Japanese Coach" because I wanted money to pay for both Ouran and Sonic! Well.. Catch ya later!! Bai!

Feeling lazy...

2008-09-22T14:19:00.000-05:00

Yup! That's how I feel right now.. Lazy! Never a good thing.. But then again, I've been feeling lazy lately because of all this bad news poring down on me. I just have a feeling that I'm not going very far with the way that I am. X_X My AWA expedition ended abruptly by my dad!! x_x So that went my special weekend to go far from home!! DX But instead, I ended up getting lost 3 times altogether in Franklin! Being sleep-deprived was to blame for this one! D: But BOY did that suuuuuuuuuuck!! I think at around 2:30, I'll take a nap.. Then after that, take a shower! X_X Also, today, I got "Ashita e no Sanka" by alan! ^^ That made my day! =D Maybe tomorrow I'll get another CD! ^_^ But anyway... I gotta go! Jya! (~.^)-- <3

ただいま～！！！

2008-09-02T23:54:00.000-05:00

Back on my feet again after a surprise visit from my mom! =D Well.. I can't count it as a surprise because I knew that she was coming as soon as my sister mentioned that she has a "SURPRISE" for me! Though I was late coming back to campus from Dickson, I had no trouble getting to campus.. But I didn't make it in time for German class.. That's the only sad part about that.. But I had fun, none the less. :) I got a new bedset for my dorm room!! ^^ It's metro-y and abstract! ^^ Well.. I also have a Japanese blog.. It's on ameba and I write on that one when I can (in my broken-down Japanese)! XDD But none the less, I can write in it! =D My last entry was a day ahead! lol But.... I know that if Vic Mignogna covers ANY song of mine, it would be "The important treasure"! (^-^) Though, I wouldn't mind if he covered "Twilight"! XDDDD (In exception that he'll have to change most of it) OK OK!! I gotta fly! See ya!! =D

P.S. "Where in the world is Leah Dizon?" LMAO!! It's a parody to "Where in the World is Carmen Sandiego?" XDDDDD <3

Guten Tag!

2008-08-26T18:38:00.000-05:00

Guten Tag! :) That's hello in German if you're not too familiar with the language! That's the language I'm taking this semester too! Who knows... If I learn enough, I MIGHT write this whole blog in German! XDD But that's the only word in German that I'll use today.. I'm partly fluent in Japanese anyway! XDD When you're use to speaking a language that's soo natural to you that everything else seems foregin.. Don't you think so? I guess it's also I'm used to listening to JPOP too! XDD Other than that, the other classes are online! :) But.. Jaa ne~!

Relieve!!! m(___)m

2008-08-14T20:31:00.000-05:00

THANK GOD IT'S ALMOST OVER!! *sigh* I thought I'd NEVER get this shit done!!!!! DX But thanks to a friend of the family, I'm almost done with taking care of stuff for school! I got through writing a VERY short blog on my Japanese blog and I feel like... I don't know the language that well, but I was able to write a little bit of it on the last entry. :) I named the entry "Tensei" in a different way (which btw means Resurrection). ^^ I'm just also glad I have someone that knows the system better than I do! (lol) But for some odd reasons, I'm still hungry! XDDDDD Thankfully, I cooked up some pizza bagels! :D YUM!! (^O^) But YEEEAH.... I think I'm done here for now! Bai bai! ^^

彼方へ．．．

2008-07-20T23:48:00.000-05:00

Seriously, Ayu! You need to take this song and sing it! (lol) Either cover Kanata E or Tsubasa! :P But anyway! I plan on hanging out with Metta tomorrow and going to see if I can go up to school on Tuesday! The reason for that is so that I can straighten everything out in time for school to start. Otherwise, I might have debt up the asshole! >.< Not to mention that my allergies have been bothering me for most of the day! DX Maybe a nice cup of tea and a thing of allergy pills doesn't sound like a bad idea right now.. T_T Other than that, I've been sneezing out the wazoo here! ~_~ WELL!! I'm off! Hoping that my collection gets here soon!!! I wanna watch it and get Vic to sign Vol. 1!! =D See ya!

Boredom came to mind...

2008-04-19T20:28:00.000-05:00

Well.. The school year's almost over and I already feel bad because yet again, I made a terrible mistake. D: If I come back for the fall semester, I'll have to make sure that I don't make this mistake again. But I'm almost thinking about taking the year off of school because I need to clear my head. That's all I need to do is just clear my head and think about wither or not I should go back to APSU. If I do, I'll need to get my developmental classes out of the way and declare an "undecided" major until I've found my true calling. Or so the head of the music department said! :P I love music, but most of the music majors are nothing but a bunch of pricks anyway! DX Other than that, I need to find what I want to do. :) I think I just need to find what I really want to do and just stick with it. :P Also, I know that I'm really creative! XDD So let's find something that I can do with my creativity!! XDDD Well... I'm done here because I'm watching Lewis Black on Comedy Central! XDD I hope I get the chance to go see him what was it.. In June? XDD *done*

Goodbye Days...

2008-04-02T05:18:00.000-05:00

Dear Diary,
I couldn’t sleep last night.. Why you ask? Because my room-mate starting bitching at me due to the fact because I was doing what I USUALLY do (which is talking to two people I love). She unplugged the phone on me TWICE! How rude is that?? Even when I was OUTSIDE! She tells me that I’m rude? She was being VERY unconsidering of how I felt about this! So what did I do? I went to the lobby to calm down.. Guess what? I bumped to an RA and I told her what happened. She (along with the other RAs) are gonna report this problem to the RAHD and see what she can do about it because this is driving me INSANE! I tried to be considered of her feelings.. I did what she told me to do.. But this is being taken too far and it needs to stop!! >.< I’m thinking about moving away from this room because of HER! That’s all I need to say...

(BTW, my blog title was taken from the song by YUI...)

Why can't I say this to her in real life?

2008-03-31T11:11:00.001-05:00

皆さん。。I feel terrible right now. This morning, my room-mate was giving me some trouble.. So I put on my robe, grabbed my stuff and stormed out of my room. So, I did what I wanted to do today and this lady told me that I should go talk to someone.. But unfortunately, I will talk to them tomorrow to see what I can do. :) I still feel a bit angry, but I'm starting to feel better. ^_^ BESIDES!! If I wanted someone to nag me at every hand, I would of stayed home and listen to my dad bitch all day! But this, I can NOT tolerate any longer!!!! I mean, I can understand that she's uncomfortable with me changing in front of her.. But to the point where she's pushing it is just taking it too far.. I mean.. It's my room too, bitch! D< So.. get over it.

僕のブログです。。。

2008-03-29T01:51:00.001-05:00

Dear blog,
I'm slowly becoming a HUGE fan of YUI! I mean, it's like the time I started listening to Ayu 5 years ago! :) The more songs I got of hers, the more I became a fan of hers!!! I mean, I'm slowly sucking myself into YUI!! I think it was the song "How crazy" that got me as a fan.. To everyone else, it might of been "Rolling Star"! But oh well.. :P As for the Ayu craze, it started WAAY back when I was 11 years old.. My older brother (without knowledge) started me on this JPOP craze and I've been on it since then! ^_^ Every once in a while, I'll devert my JPOP train to listen to some music that's in English! XD Other than that, I still love JPOP! =D So.. That'll be the blog for the day! じゃあ！ (~.^) <3

え～。。。

2008-03-19T16:18:00.000-05:00

I can't seem to focus on school! Ever since February, I've lost focus on school (which is REALLY important or my parents are gonna SHUN me). If I mess up, my dad's gonna bitch and bitch at me for screwing up. I hate being me right now because of my screw up. :( I need to call that lady that contacted me!! >.< I keep forgetting to do that!!! But I ask myself.. "What the hell is wrong with me?" What did I do to loose focus on what's important in my life??? I feel sad about this whole thing.. I screw up and EVERYBODY'S on my ass!! If I screw up, I'm gonna lay in my bed, crying because I did screw up! I know my mom's gonna try to support me.. My dad even said to me that if I screw this up again, I'm on my own. Now I'm scared to screw this up because my dad's scary! =( I just don't know what to do anymore.. That's all I can say.

As hard as I try...

2008-02-26T19:53:00.000-06:00

As hard as I try to not upset people, I feel like I've failed that miserably. First, I've upset my boyfriend and now I'm feeling miserable for upsetting my roommate. What am I to do? I feel horrible! I'm in tears because of this!! Right now.. I just want some comfort. Also, I feel like the world is turning against me.. I mean.... Can you blame me for being so damn naive? I try my hardest to make sure that they don't turn against me and it happens anyway because of my actions. :( Sometimes, I wish that people understood how fragile I can be.. But not everyone does. I guess I'm a horrible person after all. =( If I continue being the way I am, that's how I see it...

恋は愛の日 ~2 days of Love~

2008-02-19T19:47:00.000-06:00

I have these random cosplaying ideas that are running through my head! For one, I want to cosplay as Ayame Sohma from Fruits Basket! Secondly, I want to cosplay as Ayumi Hamasaki! But the only problem is.. Which costume? .o.

decision

Marionette

Or (don't) Leave me alone

Other than that.. That's all I have for now! じゃあね！

Feeling really stressed at the moment

2008-01-31T12:42:00.000-06:00

RAAAAWR!! I wanna go back to Columbia for a little while! DX I hate the stress that APSU is giving me! All I want for the moment is to go to school without any stress... For once, I want to be in control without anyone giving me some stress!!! After this semster, if my mom's home, I want to tell her that I want to go back to Columbia for Fall 2008. The reason why is because of the stress that APSU is giving me... They don't understand that I HAVE TO TAKE THESE CLASSES!! -_- Especially my math class because of how POORLY I did on the ACT! Jeez, people! Just stay off my case! That's all!

untitled ~for her~

2008-01-25T08:55:00.000-06:00

It's weird that the title of my blog is an Ayu song! XD The title is appporitate for how I feel at the moment because the song 「untitled ~for her~」 is a song that she wrote for her lost friend. (T^T) Just like how I lost a friend (more like a dog)! *sigh* But you know how pets are the closest members of your family because they're almost human. Either way... Inside, I'm still grieving over him. But in time, I'll get over his death and move on.. But it's hard because there's so many memories. (T^T) That and he always slept on my bed! (lol) I'm gonna miss that too. :( But when it comes to something like this, all you can really do is grieve and move on. Death is one of the things I hate dealing with.. But life is cruel like that, so it's gonna come sooner or later. For now, I must say this.. "バイバイ～!!"

The thing I don't get...

2008-01-22T13:15:00.000-06:00

The thing that I don't get is why in the hell are people getting married at a younger age?? I mean, I understand if it wasn't planned. But to plan it before you turn 21 is a little rash if you ask me. <.<>.< Maybe I'm just too old fashioned. ^^;; On the other hand, I feel so depressed that I could cry because my boyfriend needed a hand and I let him down. :( So.. What am I to do now? I wish I could be strong.. But I'll try to get over it sometimes! :) Someday, I will.. But for now, I'm just going to leave this blog alone before I get chased by some angry mobs! XDD バイバイ～！

The new school year

2008-01-16T13:55:00.000-06:00

Well.. School began with a little happiness from me! :D But, I had to drop a class.. Other than that, I'm doing alright! :) Ummm.. What else? OH YEAH!! My dad told me that my copy of GUILTY came in the mail yesterday!! YAAAAAY!! ^^ I can't wait to hear it!! ^^ Hopefully, mine came with a photobook... I hope so! I wanna see it!! =D But if not, oh well! *shrug* At least I'll enjoy the CD! :) Well.. See ya!

A crappy new year

2008-01-10T17:37:00.000-06:00

2008 has arrived and it's turned out to be a crappy one so far. School is on its way and I feel crappy because of my poor performance last semester. I DON'T think it was to the fact that I didn't do much!! It's to the fact that I let my attention to Matt get the better of me! If I do less of that, I'll feel better and I'LL do better! My dad bitched at me today about how I should be able to better my life.. I'm trying to, but it's hard! I also want to say that my older brother is a better role-model for me because he's doing something better than what I'm doing right now. But right now, I'm trying to steer myself in the right direction, but my dad keeps butting in! DX If he wants me to strive in my life, he needs to stop butting in! Let me worry about my life and you worry about yours, ok? That's enough from me.. BAI! :D

My my, this year has flown by pretty quickly!

2007-12-30T19:32:00.000-06:00

Dear diary,
2007 is drawing to a close and I would like to make this statement.. I hope I do better in 2008. If not, I will officially call myself a loser for not being focused. Anyway.. This year has gone by pretty quickly and so did the semester. I can say that I have NOT registered myself for the upcoming semster and I feel REALLY bad for it. :( I'm stressed out too because soon, I start school back up and I won't be able to go to school if I don't register for my classes! DX I need that damn Alternate PIN number so I WOULD be able to register for my classes!!!! TT^TT Oh well.. Maybe my mom will help me out.. But I still need to see Dr. Lisa about all this crap! So.. I'll see APSU somewhere in January! BAAAAAI!!

クリスマスの歌？

2007-12-23T05:45:00.000-06:00

Strange title, isn't it? XD It's hard to believe that Christmas is 2 days away! O_O I mean.. It feels like December has flown by pretty fast! NO!! I take that back! This whole year has flown by pretty damn fast! D: I mean.. It still feels like the beginning of December.. But I just realized that it's getter closer to Christmas! HURRY, MATT AND PAT'S PRESENTS! DX Well.. Since it's 5 AM, I can say that yesterday was a pretty awesome day (until I got sick, but I'm saving the details). :D I got a promise ring (just like I wanted to begin with)! This one is the one where the thought REALLY counts and I'm really happy that it's simple and silver! :) But the biggest shocker of my day was that most of Matt's family was really worried about me when I did get sick! =O Can I say that I'm truly blessed? XD Well.. It's true. ^_^ I'm truly blessed to be dating the greatest guy of my life and I hope to marry him someday. :) For now, I'm going to stop before I make myself cry! XDD バイバ～イ！！！

It makes me happy to think...

2007-12-08T05:03:00.000-06:00

Well.. My day was pretty much a lazy ass day! :P But tonight wasn't so much of a glorious night. Not until I started to talking to Janelle with Matt on the phone. :( Then, I started getting jealous... Is that a bad thing? Is it human for females to be jealous? Anyway!! I went shopping today with Emily and Christina. (^-^) I got a shirt in the process!! \(^O^)/ But too bad that the bitch couldn't get me anything else (and no, I wasn't referring to Emily). :P But other than my night being a little pathetic, I ended up making someone's night. :) The poor girl.. I feel sorry for her because this whole military shit is really new to her!! (TT^TT) I just know that she's gonna make it through! But like I said, I'm really happy that I made her night! ^_^ So.. BAI BAI!! (^o^)/

日誌声明

2007-11-29T21:55:00.001-06:00

Dear Journal,

I don't know what to do with my life anymore.. I can't complete my music stuff and I can't keep my head straight.. I'm confused as hell and I feel really bad for all the shit I've done. Maybe I shouldn't be worrying about music. That was my BIGGEST mistake. I should be concentrating on my core studies before I actually worry about my music studies. Why did I make this mistake?? I've decided that I'm gonna take care of my core classes before I worry about what I should be majoring in.. That's all I have to say. Also.. Someone that I know pointed out to me that I'm an unfocused individual. I've been unfocused for as long as I remember.. The true question I should ask everyone is, "should I be even ATTENDING college?"

One of those days....

2007-11-28T12:51:00.001-06:00

One of the regrettable days was going on a date with Jonathan Bozarth to the spring fair thing while I was still dating one of the greatest guys in my life.. I know, "Why would she stoop that low???" I was stupid and naive!! Ok??? I really just didn't know any better!!! I hate myself for it and I feel like crying because of it!!! I mean... Did HE really know that Matt and I HAD gotten back together or did he really not? That's the question I wish I could have asked him.. But also.. I wish I could of said no to him. That would of made yesterday feel a WHOLE lot better too. I only said yes to the date because I REALLY thought Jon and I could of gone as friend. NO! Instead, he made me feel lower than dirt.. I shouldn't of done what I done that night.. I.. I just can't forgive myself for what I did and that date really cost my relationship because now it's going to take time to gain Matt's trust back to me. Thanks alot, jackass!

光は．．．

2007-11-25T18:21:00.000-06:00

Hikari wa? XD Sorry! I haven't used a Japanese title in a while! m(__)m() Well, I'm listening to Together When... and now I know what to expect on the live! It's a good song, but I'm feeling pretty apathetic right now. Considering my day almost went to hell. :( Other than that, I feel calm and I don't feel like crying anymore. In a way, I still feel bad because my dad was being an ass and unplugged the damn phone! DX Wouldn't even give me the chance to apologize to Matt for the actions that took place today! o(>.<)o WELL!! Anyway, I had a pretty ok thanksgiving with my family this past week. The only comedic relief is that my dad burnt the honey ham! (laugh) In a way, I was glad to be home.. But today, I didn't feel that way. First of all, I couldn't find my tennis shoes. What made me cry today was to the fact that my dad was wanting to get rid of me (or so that's how I felt).　私はことの私が光する。。In my broken down Japanese, I was trying to say "I want to find my light"! XD Well.. Catch ya later!! (^o^)/

Why do I feel this way?

2007-11-16T01:36:00.000-06:00

Why do I feel like nobody trusts me anymore? I feel like whenever I say something that they go in a different direction. I speak my mind and they feel differently towards me than before. What in the hell is happening to me?? I don't feel like myself today and I don't know why... :( But I guess that's life for you. It sucks! >O< Life is a cruel game and I hate it. But at the time, it has its purposes.. Other than that, I don't feel trusted anymore. The end.

This feeling I have..

2007-11-06T23:58:00.001-06:00

Why do I feel like I'm losing Matt? I feel like I'm losing him to Janelle again, like in 2003. I feel sad and I want some reassurance that he still loves me. I mean, really.. Does he really love me? The reason why I say this because.. Yeah, I understand he wants to help her out, but I feel like I'm losing him because I feel like he's talking to her more often now.. o(_ _)o Help me, Matt. I feel like I'm losing you!

Dear Journal,

2007-10-01T12:22:00.000-05:00

LIFE SUCKS! No no.. I feel like I'm falling behind on certian things. Like for instance, I feel like Music Theory is getting harder and harder by everyday because to be really honest, I can't keep up with it! >.< I'm sinking lower and lower into the sand because I feel like it's sufficiating me and I can't really stop it. I feel like I'm not into music as I use to be anymore and it saddens me some. :( I don't know what it is, but I think it's because it's a hard major to keep up with! I still have the thought of picking up something else to see if that's my passion. If not, then I'll have to really think about it because that will be the path I'll go through with for the rest of my life. But for now, I'm sticking to a past-time of mine. ^^

Tehe! I'm such a dirty pervert! XD

2007-09-09T20:41:00.000-05:00

I'm such a pervert because I just saw a Velocity commerical and I was thinking, "Hmmmmm.. Vacation time for me and Matt!" XD YEEAH "VACATION"! *laugh* All I can say is "Hikaru, you're such a perv!" XD *squeaky squeaky* <--inside joke between me and Matt! :P We were thinking about spending the night at a motel or something like it anyway! XD The greatest gift for my birthday would to see him.. *drools at the thought of being surrounded by hot girls* *¬*

sigh

2007-08-22T00:05:00.000-05:00

Times like this makes me wish that Matt and I were living together. But, I'm trying my best to get comfortable here by myself for the time being until my roommate moves in. :) The reason I say that is because I love him and I miss him. I also miss the way we both kiss and hug! (>O<) Now that I think of it, he will be the only reason I would be homesick. He means so much to me, so I don't want to forget about him while I'm in Clarksville (where I am right now). Most of all, I moved into my dorm and I'm REALLY happy! ^_^ But, at the same time, I miss seeing him. o( _ _ )o I really do! I hope sometime soon that I would. But, since he says I don't have anything to worry about, I'll focus on what I need to do and think about him when I'm in a small group or I'm in my dorm room! :D OK, KIDDIES!! See ya later! :)

The time for a freaken haircut!! >O<

2007-08-09T15:28:00.000-05:00

I wanna cut my hair short! I'm tired of dealing with long ass fuckin' hair! >O<

MY DECISION LAYS IN THIS PICTURE!!!
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((I rest my case.. Anyone else wanna complain about it?))

ごめんなさあ～～～い！

2007-08-02T14:52:00.000-05:00

The title is for not updating when I had the chance! >.< Anyway, I wanna take a roadtrip to Orlando for AFO so I can meet Chris Sabat, Sonny Strait, Travis (once again), and...STUFF! :D I think lately, I'm starting to sound like a mix of Hikaru Utada and Ayumi Hamasaki!! O_O After all, Utada is my main influence on my singing. It was weird after I purchased ULTRA BLUE (Utada), Secret (Ayu), and glitter/fated (Ayu also). I can't wait for "glitter/fated" to arrive! I already got ULTRA BLUE and Secret about a month ago! Guess what?? I LOVE BOTH!! =D The only thing about Secret is that I got the CD+DVD verison! .__.() Weird, huh? I decided on a song that I can dedicate to Vic and Michele (when they come to MTAC)! HEAVEN by Ayumi Hamasaki! ^_^ Wonderful song!! I absolutly LOVE IT!! Ｏ(≧▽≦)Ｏ Now that I made that decision, I need to practice! XD バイバア~イ！ (´･ω･)ﾉ

To my blog

2007-07-10T14:40:00.000-05:00

Dear Journal,
Today sucks because my throat's still sore and I've already taken something for it. T_T But, last night was a date night for me again, considering that my boyfriend didn't want to watch the rest of Transformers. I didn't mind going along with him, considering that I was sick and I didn't feel any better. :( But when I get better, I'll go see it again with somebody else. ^^ For the moment, I'm trying to take care of my throat (I might have strep throat). I'm sad that I don't know how I got sick in the first place. But I am trying my best to make it go away! >.< Well, I must take a nap. Bai!

Ayu news and some other stuff!

2007-06-29T12:34:00.000-05:00

OMG!! I love the covers for Ayu's new single "glitter/fated"! O_O I mean it, I love them so much that I made a set out of them! XD Here I was getting worried about getting pregnant and my peiord starts late! XD I'm thankful in a way that period started today. But hey, I'm not bitching about it! XD OH YEAH!!

CD+DVD

CD Only

Official source: http://www.avexnet.or.jp/ayu/jp/news/070516.html

As much as I love the CD cover, I love the CD+DVD cover too. ^_^ Knowing me, I'll get the CD+DVD!! XD What's odd is that the font used for "ayumi hamasaki" is from Duty. O.o WOOW! Ok, I'll say bai bai now! :)

What's wrong with my relationship?

2007-06-15T00:12:00.000-05:00

I thought I had found the right guy... Turns out there are some bumper roads than I expected. But I suppose that can't be helped. *shrugs* The dude and I were a spark until the flames kept dying.. But I suppose the sparks are still there! I believe it! ^_^ Though, the thing is that he keeps kicking himself down and I worry about that, even though I keep being the idiot I am and ruin the whole evening. :( But if he reads this, he's gonna disagree with me! XD But anyway, yeah, I'm on the phone with him, but I guess the flames either spark or die very slowly and spark right back up! But I believe I can kick start this whole relationship! ;D BELIEVE IT! (*attacked by Narutards*) @_@ I guess this depressing thing turned into something more convenient! YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY!! XD Which remind me, HOLY SHIT!! O_O OUR DATE.. NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!! -_-;;;;; I feel like shit! *cries in the corner* I feel worthless again!!! TT^TT I hate it when I don't plan ahead!!! DX I'm gonna have a feeling like nobody's gonna take me to the movies. :'( Unless Juri-chan plans on taking me.. Other than that, I'm shit-fucked-screwed. -_-;;; But I'll figure something out. Well, bai for now!

Casual Monday

2007-06-12T00:46:00.000-05:00

Today, I went up to Clarksville for my stuff for college and it went rather quickly than I thought it would. After that, we went to the mall and I got some new clothes. :) I'm rather impressed with my gothy look! ^^ Though, what I don't like is that MY SISTER picked a color that makes me look FAT! DX (Green makes me look fat, people! :P) I am trying new stuff and making sure that I look good wearing it! XD A preview of the two outfits I put together is the green casual and the everyday goth-like wear. ^^

Green summer casual

(The shoes that went with both outfits *along with the sparkly jeans for the gothy outfit!*)

Gothy outfit

Just to let you know, the shirt in the gothy outfit is much comfortable than the green shirt. I KNEW I should of taken the blue shirt. DX Well, this conclude this blog from Hikaru! BAI! ^^

何～～！！！！

2007-06-09T14:46:00.000-05:00

Crap... I'm stressing out because I don't have my permit! DX RAWR! This sucks! This really sucks! DX RAAAAAAAAAAAWR!! I wish I had my sister here.. I miss having her around. :( Ok, screw that.. I'm just stressing over the test.. *sighs* I guess I'll make it short. Bai! ^_^

~今日~
I did the ACT and I think I did ok on it. I was thinking to myself that I'm going to laugh if I get a higher score than my siblings! :P But then again, my siblings are smarter than me. TT^TT But I'll know soon if I did do well or not. I'm still proud of myself for knowing what I know now! ^_^ One more thing.. I HATE MATH!! *ahem* I'm done. ^^;;

Is it me or did I drag myself back to SeraMyu? O.o

2007-06-02T03:24:00.000-05:00

Ok, my love for ANZA suddenly drug me back to her roots in SeraMyu! O.o How odd is that?? Anyway! It's one of those "OMG, I want to meet ANZA so badly" posts, isn't it? Well, for starters, YES I want to meet ANZA! I also want Vic Mignogna to meet ANZA because they both are wonderful actors and they both can sing! :) The only difference is that she can dance and..he can't. But still! It would be a great start for a collaboration project to come true! ^_^ *drifts away from calling Marina Kuroki "hot"* Well let's see.. I'm bored and I'm writing on this blog, just because I can. I just hope I can meet Ayumi Hamasaki someday! ^^ That would amaze me if I got to meet both ANZA and Ayu on the same day! ＼(*＾▽＾*)／ It would be funny if HPP came to MTAC and Vic did too.. That way, I can say, 「Vicさん、これはアンザさん！アンザさん、これはVicさん!」＼(｀〇´ ) Oo! That's an awesome idea! I just hope it works! （*/∇＼*） Well.. I'm tired and I'm going to leave this random blog with a Ayu note! :P

The past has come back to haunt me..

2007-05-26T22:03:00.000-05:00

Wow.. I'm completely shocked on how the past can come back to bite you in the ass! Especially when your ex-boyfriend asks you back after his dream girl wasn't so dreamy. I mean, I had THAT part coming, but I'm completely shocked that he's asking me back out! I'm sitting here going, ".... OMG.. That's a surprise." So other than that, last night, I did some pimping at Juri-chan's graduation with Matt Betts, Jon, and Juri-chan. But, I missed Kara and I feel bad about that. :( But.. Wow.. That's a complete shocker that he was proven wrong and he's running back to me after 2 years. That's just-- wow.. I'm undecided on what to do. So for now, I'll catch this blog later!

P.S. Whoever is hacking into my email address, STOP IT! DX I hate it when I'm hacked!! It pisses me off! DX

卒業写真

2007-05-11T00:33:00.000-05:00

It's been a while, hasn't it? LOL!! I suppose so, since it's been since last month that I updated this damn thing! :P Still the same Ayu fan that adores her for her music! ^^ Just like my goal is to go to an Ayumi Hamasaki concert one day! >( But the only problem I have is getting there! :P I don't know if I can afford to see Ayu! I just hope that Ayu makes her way over to GA or TN someday, because I'd like to meet her. Well, I started a music myspace and I only have mostly my friends on it. :( *Here's my emo moment* I don't feel important anymore..*end of emo moment* But oh well, it takes time and that's ok! ^_^ I'm getting older!! XD What else is new? OH YEAH! There's a little storyline that ran through my head! But, it might scare some voice actors, so I'm not going to say! ^^;;; That and I'm tired anyway.. = =() School wore me OUT and so, I've been really tired almost every night. @_@ Am I getting paranoid?? NAH! I don't think so, it's just me, I suppose. @_@ College can wear you out!! (UoU)() I updated my "who I want to meet" list! =D The only name I updated was Sean Schemmel (the reason why is a LOOOOOOOONG story)! :P In other news! Ayu has collaborated with Hello Kitty and is selling the most CUTEST stuff!! ^o^

Like the Lumix collaboration with Hello Kitty! ^^

And the ASH&DIAMOND collaboration with Hello Kitty!

((PICTURE CREDIT TO "Ayumi-Hamasaki.net Forums" and Ayu's official site))

Well, I'm off! Jaa ne! ^^
~Hikaru

Well, am I prepared?

2007-04-03T09:50:00.000-05:00

I started college in January and the semster is almost over. The only question is.."Am I prepared for the end?" I don't feel prepared for that and I haven't started on my paper for history! DX But it's been a while since I posted an entry on here too, so that settles that problem too! XD I'm WAAY behind on posting on a personal blog. @_@ SHAME ON ME! (LOL!!) College is well music-wise, but not on my history! o_o What's new?? XD GAH, Anza has such emotion! Especially on her songs! =D But, I'm just fangirling, aren't I? ^^() My mom is missing physically from the house, but not in spirit! XD (Speaking of that, I had a weird dream that I was Vic and he started acting like my mom! O.o Then I woke up in my dream at Paula's house, wondering why I had a weird dream. Then the phone seldomly started ringing and the caller id showed numbers *as in codes* and I anwsered and it was someone I didn't know. But then my sister mentioned "Hina" in my dream and then the weird appearence of Eyeshine appeared in my dream. O.o *weirded out* The occurence with that dream is I kept waking up and falling back asleep IN my dream! Now THAT'S weird!!! O_O) Well, I'm done here for the day! BAI! ^_^

AYU NEWS~~!

2007-02-15T10:18:00.000-06:00

Ayu has updated her official site to fit the theme to "A BEST 2"! O_O COOL!! The other cool thing, http://abest2.com/index.html! O_O HOW COOL IS THAT?! This is AWESOME, I love how much promotion this best album is getting! Soon, I WILL ORDER WHITE (CD only) AND BLACK (CD+DVD)!!! >D *evil laugh and poses while looking stupid* ^^; Moving on! I can't wait for the new best album to come out! It's soo cool, because I've heard all of these songs that's going to be on both verisons (except for part of Me)! I hope that there will be re-recorded tracks on A BEST 2! That would be SWEET! ^_^ But for now, I'll have to get Secret, I am..., and RAINBOW to hear new songs I haven't heard of yet (FIRST). For now, that will be the end of Hikaru's rambling! BAI! (^.^)/

It's been a while, hasn't it?

2007-02-14T16:53:00.000-06:00

Yeah, school's great and all! Buuut, I feel like I did back when I was still in high school! I feel drained and exhausted from all of that music almost pulled out of me, but I still stand here. But, thankfully, I'm still here, right? WARNING, HIKARU WANTS TO GO TO AFO TO MEET CHRIS SABAT, CHRIS PATTON, SONNY STRAIT, TRAVIS AGAIN, JEFF NIMOY AND QUINTON FLYNN!! But mainly Chris Sabat because I've wanted to meet him since I was in 7th grade. O.o Weird, huh? Oh well, AFO's added on the list of anime conventions I'm thinking about attending (MOM, LET ME GO TO AFO!! I WILL PAY YOU BACK FOR IT). Then surprising Sonny with...MY COMPOSTIONS! :P Next, blomping Travis! >D (I'm such an evil little girl!!) After that, introducing myself to the two I DO NOT plan on doing anything evil with! :P (Vic's my next target for that blomp, because I OWE him one and the duet we never got around to. o_o) <.< >.> SPARKLERS RULE!! *cough and hide* Right now, I'm writing from Lewisburg (where I'm fixing to take my piano lessons here in...an hour)! :P So, hope you guys had a great day! Happy Valentine's Day and I'll see you soon! BAI!

Giddy Hikaru

2007-01-18T10:02:00.000-06:00

Woo! I've officially started college (which means, I'm not sitting on my ass bored anymore)! :P The difference between HS and College is that college has a more relaxed atomesphere than High School ever did! That ANND they don't play the favorites game (which is a relief)! I had gone officially on Tuesday and I bumped into Metta(w00t) and the high school wouldn't do one simple thing! HOW FREAKEN HARD IS THAT TO JUST SIMPLY FAX OFF A HIGH SCHOOL TRANSCRIPT??! *ahem* I'm done ranting here. ^^() Just remember that I still have that goal to meet Anza, Miyuki, and Marina someday (as well as Ayumi Hamasaki) that I need to list! (lol) The thing I learned about Columbia while I go to college here is that IT'S ALWAYS WINDY!! >.< I've been warned that too and I forgot that yesterday, so I suffered for it. :P I LOVE my music teacher! I can just say that I don't have to deal with Eagle Nose anymore! :P So, f*** you, DCHS! (Except my friends that still go there.) Thank you, that will be all from Hikaru! Bai bai! (^o^)/

Giddy or no?

2007-01-13T18:42:00.000-06:00

Ok, so today I had some luck! I was happy that I got friendster and I looked for Anza and found her! But, sadly, she hasn't had much since...2004! :( Sucks that I might wait FOREVER until she adds me. But oh well. *shrugs* Still no luck on finding Marina so I can talk to her and say "Hi" to! But, I did find Shirota floating around! *giggles* YAY! I also added Miyuki! W00T! Hehe.. ^^() I better go before I get that mixed feeling. Baaai! :)

It's been a year..

2007-01-12T02:55:00.000-06:00

Wow.. A year ago in August, I created the sparklers and it's been growing slowly! It's STILL growing slowly, but I think the rabid grow will change as more people coming pouring in (because I know there's more Sabat fans out there)! I mean, come on! Who doesn't think that his randomness is cute? I laugh at it because he somewhat reminds me of myself and maybe some of my older brother! XD He's almost as random as I am and he's almost as crazy as my brother! :P Plus, he's cool like my mom (yeah, I know THAT'S crazy)! But I'm done fangirling here! XD To more serious things.. I think I might be starting school soon, I'm not sure how soon but I'm might be. ^^() I just hope I get to meet my favorite voice actors at MTAC! That would be AWESOME! Not to mention I have a slight fear that one of them would take my camera. <.< >.> I'll still laugh anyway, dispise my paranoia! XD Yeah, I worry too much, ok? What else is new?? MOVING ON! I'm bored out of my freaken wits and I need something to do anyway, so I'm writing instead. :P I still want to meet ANZA, Marina, and (now) Miyuki. :) I don't mind meeting ether of those three first, because I'm just weird like that! 8) If they all come to an anime convention, I had imagined them singing with me "Moon Revenge" (though La Moon sounds similar to Moon Revenge)! *hits self in the head* I also want Moon Revenge to be a Myu too! LOL!! *Anza can take the Moon part in Moon Revenge* XD Well, I'm out! See ya! :)

**Wow!! Long, ain't it?**

Woohoo!

2007-01-06T11:47:00.000-06:00

Ok, I'm not asleep yet and I made an ANZA fan forum. O.o I wonder if she'll be proud of that one?? I wonder that because the forum was made by an American... But I guess I shouldn't worry so much before it kills me in my sleep. (lol) I have three forums to each catagory and it evens out nicely! :D Now, only if I were to work on the topics. T_T I think ANZA is like the Japanese Vic Mignogna, because she's a singer too AND she's an actress! Wait...is she a Star Wars fan? XD Now there's 3 Japanese incarnations of Vic! -_- ANZA, Ayu, and Arakawa (concendently, they all start with an "A"! O.o Weeird!) As for the fan forum, MERRY EARLY CHRISTMAS!! リンク I guess she's also free to join it if she wants. Well, I'm off! Later! ;) <3

Something better to do, maybe?

2007-01-05T23:47:00.000-06:00

So far, the sparklers have 49 member and that's small in comparison to people that started their groups in 2005 (like Aaron and Caitlin's groups). I'm actually proud to the fact that it's growing! ^_^ I hope to get more members soon for it. Right now, I think Ran and Ryou were gonna try to recruit people. But, I don't know if that will work. :( But, I won't doubt it! :P As for plans for SeraMyu, I might have to launch "Beautiful Fighters" ether in 2008 or later this year. For right now, "Beautiful Fighters" is in planning mode. So far, I don't know if I'll appoint myself as Sailormoon. SO MANY THOUGHTS RUNNING THROUGH MY MIIIIIIIIND!! o(>ω<)o But, I'll talk about that thing with Ran as soon as she comes back from Ohayocon. I guess I could be nicknamed "the free-thinker" or something, because I come up with so many ideas and most of them aren't written down. LOL! I guess I'll have to leave for now. Bai! Hugs and kisses to all! (^.~)> <3 ちゅ!

Happy 2007! Huzzah! XD

2007-01-02T05:14:00.000-06:00

It's finally 2007 and..2006 sucked ass, end of story. T_T I went through some personal changes over the years and changed some of my diet over the years too (WOW, I'm not eating Pizza everyday anymore)!LOL! I even went through some...rather odd fandom changes too. O.o Damn, how odd is that? I think I went back to kind of obsessing Sailormoon Musical and introduced myself to Anza Oyama, Fumina Hara, Miyuki Kanbe, and Marina Kuroki. Right now, I'm a big fan of Anza! XD I guess I'm now a fan of Miyuki and Marina as well, despise of how weird they sound to me(wait..that didn't make sense)! (laughs) I wanna see more Miyuki acting, but I don't know if I can find any on youtube! The only thing I found on Miyuki alone on youtube was SeraMyu. I still wouldn't mind seeing some more Marina (though most of her musicals are mostly borrowed from previous musicals). O.o I guess I would have to see the movie that Miyuki is in to see her acting. OH!!! Quick random shout-out to them (if they come across this at all),"HIIIIIII! (^o^)/" HAHA! Well, to you all, happy new years and don't do something I wouldn't do! (Laughs) Hugs and Kisses! (^.~)> ~ちゅ<3

「私はそうです。。」

2006-12-30T20:04:00.000-06:00

Happy 2007! Tomorrow is New Years Eve, and I'm well prepared for the new year as well as preparing for the con year. ^_^ But I am well prepared for an MTAC without Vic. :) I know he might come back in 2008. ^^ By the meantime, I might prepare for AWA (cosplay wise). ^^() Right now, I only have Rukia from Bleach planned for AWA. Right for MTAC, I have SeraMyu Moon *uniform and Sailormoon Fuku* and Ayumi Hamasaki planned for Friday and Saturday. As for Sunday, I have no freaken clue! I might pull Sailor Mars out of my ass for Sunday! o(*≧д≦)o That or Sailor Jupiter (both costumes from the anime, not SeraMyu). ＾（￣□￣＃）＾ Ether way, I might pull SeraMyu Usagi (and maybe SeraMyu Moon) for Saturday while I pull Ayu for Friday.（⌒_⌒）But, I might as well say it now, "Happy new years!" and "Happy 2007!" <3
Love to all! <3

私達はそうです。。

2006-12-27T17:31:00.000-06:00

Ok, I feel like making a Gundam Wing RPG forum, since there is a story stuck in my head. I think most of the story came from a dream that had with Heero and Duo in it. O.o The story that I have in my head is a story that's playing in my head right now, which is about these 4 clones that went to different Gundam Pilots and they only have three names (Hitomi, Hotaru, and Hikaru). It's odd how this is playing in my head. O.o One's married to Heero (surely by accident when she meant the real Heero), one's with Wufei, the original person (the first Hikaru) is staying with Duo, one's with Quarte, and the last one is wondering around *maybe looking for Trowa*. Well.. My Christmas was ok. I got some cooking stuff, clothes, and fleece sheets for my bed. Ok, I'll see ya later! Bai!

メリークリスマス!! =D

2006-12-25T18:54:00.000-06:00

Well, it's officially Christmas! W00T! Most of all, I'm proud of my pan, my bowls and chopsticks, my utensils, my clothes, and my fleece bed set! (○⌒∇⌒○) Well, I burned two karoke cds and I'm proud of those too. o(^▽^)o So, I guess I'll be gone! Bye!

Wow.. did it just zoom by me all of the sudden?

2006-12-21T23:51:00.000-06:00

Wow, it's getting close to Christmas and no sign of "Secret". I'm beginning to think that she didn't get it, but I don't know that because I have to wait until Christmas Day. ^_^ I got a new mattress for my bed and put some stuff on it, so.. I'm sitting pretty high right now! XD Not taller than me, but just a tad higher up from the floor! But right now, we STILL don't have a tree AND IT'S GETTING CLOSE TO FREAKEN CHRISTMAS!! DX But, later, we will. Because my mom waits until the LAST MINUTE to get the stuff! But, Merry Christmas to ya and see you soon! :)

Just another day passing by..

2006-12-18T01:22:00.000-06:00

Ｏ(≧▽≦)Ｏﾜｰｲ♪ I love Japanese emoticons! ||| ＼(￣▽￣;)／ ||| So beautiful that..I'm actually happy for once? ＼(^▽^＼)(/^▽^)/＼(^ω^＼)( /^ω^)/ LOL! WEEEEEEEE!! =D 。(⌒∇⌒。) Well, I'm bored and there's nothing better to do. u_u I wanna talk to a Japanese celebrity SOO badly! v(｡-_-｡)v Oh well, (○⌒∇⌒○) バ～イ!

Bored and what else am I to do?

2006-12-16T01:51:00.000-06:00

Hey! LJ works for me now! YAY! Umm.. Yeah, anyway! I created two more blogs, other than my anime blog! My sparklers blog . So, yeah, Christmas is on its way and...I want Secret! Maybe as soon as we get our tree up, she might order it. But, I'm not sure that she's getting me Secret. u_u But, we'll see. :) I might get the same amount of presents that I did last year, but my sister might get more this year. But, that's ok! ^^ Oh yeah! Funny story! My mom came to my room, saying, "Heather, you got a hair appointment at 3:30." and I said, "Ok." She kept reminding me about that until half way to the beauty salon when she said, "Oh, your appointment was Thursday, not today!" LOL!! What was she thinking? XD MOVING ON! So, we get to the beauty salon and she was like, "It was Thursday, wasn't it?" and I was laughing, because my mom forgot yesterday! XD So, she said, "I'm so sorry!" and I'm like, "Mom, it's ok!" Well, that was my day! See ya! =D

WTF??

2006-12-13T00:26:00.000-06:00

What in the hell is up with myspace and corrupting LJ on Firefox?? DX It's like one mintue it's fine, then myspace fucks up and fucks up LJ on Firefox! Looks like I'll have to uninstall and REINSTALL Firefox AGAIN! DX Gah, this is the second time that's happened too! -_- So humiliating. Oh well.. I'm done with my rant. ^^

December, I'm here..

2006-12-03T22:12:00.000-06:00

December, December, I'm ready for you to hit me and call me a failure! XD Just kidding, it's december and it's been boring. Just wait until Christmas Shopping gets worse. O.o Now, THAT'S a crowd of greedy people.. But anyway! My uncle wants the PS3 so he can play Madden 07. -_- What else is new? I got to talk to a VA on my cellphone! (How lucky can I get?) WAA!! Colts lost! DX Thanks for me not watching the game! >.< But oh well, I didn't care, ether way. Yeah, November might of been bumpy at the end, but I managed anyway! I mean, what's life without some bumps? Yeah, my bumps hurt towards the end, but I managed. ^_^ Well.. For now, Jaa ne!

To my friends and fans of Ayumi Hamasaki

2006-11-19T04:24:00.000-06:00

Hi! My Saturday was pretty miserable, consistering I was dealing an old problem AND I was suffering from the temper drop. D: Well, anyway! Like all of Ayu's fans, I made a fanclub in honor of her (though it's unofficial). It's called "The unofficial Hamasaki Ayumi fanclub" (Yeah, REAL original!) Yeah, other than JUST creating that, I haven't been really feeling myself. People do change, including myself.. So, why can't my ex-boyfriend just accept that I don't love him and move on to a fresh start?? Oh well, is it my option to say so? But, I'm moving on (or at least I'm trying to shovel my past behind me) to newer things and something more fresh than what High School brought me. Well, I'll say "Oyasumi Gozaimasu, minna-san!!" Jaa ne! ;)

Dammit, this sucks. T_T

2006-11-14T17:09:00.000-06:00

It's Tuesday, I have band practice soon and it's cold in my house (well, not deathly cold, but chilly). What am I suppose to do? I don't know if my mom wants to take me. :'( I don't think we have money for gas, so thus, I'm probably stuck here. T-T Dammit, this sucks! The worse thing was that last night, I had the weirdest dream that has Chris Sabat and Sonny Strait in it. O.o Talk about WEIRD! So yeah, I'm somewhat pissed because my mom doesn't have gas. Yes, I did find some gruesome news for the MTAC people to weep, "Vic's not coming back to MTAC". T--T This sucks!! Now I have to imagine what MTAC's gonna be like WITHOUT Vic! T_T Oh well, if he goes to AWA (I don't know if THAT'S likely ether), I'm gonna kick his butt! ;D ::sparkles:: Yeah, life's a bitch, we gotta move on! ^_^ I decieded to stay again, due to difficultly to get there. OH WELL, I guess I'm done ranting for the night. じゃあ! ;)

Dear Journal..

2006-11-12T14:05:00.000-06:00

It's Sunday.. W00t. T_T (note the sarcasim on my face). My sister's watching Samurai 7 and my group is growing! Yeah, growing slowly, but surely! Just trying to find some more Sabat fans to make it grow to be as big as Caitilin's and Aaron's. But, none the less, I'm promoting the group like crazy and trying my best to get people to join it! But other than that, nothing much going on around here. Just boring.. Ok, see ya for now! :)

Secret, the ayu album. :D

2006-11-10T09:02:00.000-06:00

Wow.. All I can say is that the covers for "Secret" beats (miss) understood!!

"CD+DVD"

"CD"

Source: Divine Ayu
ayumi hamasaki's official webpage (expect, they're smaller)

All I can say is, "Wow!" But anyway, the tracks to this album sound kinda weird, but funny. ^_^

Well, Jaa ne! ;)

W00t!

2006-11-08T11:14:00.000-06:00

YAAAY!! On Ayu's official site, they have revieled the tracklist for 『Secret』!! I just hope that the cover is elegant like HEAVEN or RAINBOW! That might be cool, since the tattoo looks AWESOME!! YAAAAAY, it's HEAVEN all over again (in exception for the face shot). o.o Other than that, it looks awesome! ^_^ But, some of the tracks on the tracklist just are ASKING for good and some bad songs (like on MY STORY)! But, Ayu will find a way to make funny sound pretty! ^_^ Well.. *ahem* moving on! We have a respectable Govnenor for 4 more years and sent "baka" to the sentate. Well, it's just peachy, but I have a feeling that it's gonna titter-totter in between the years before Bush retires from office in 08. Jaa ne! ;) <3

How bad could it turn out?

2006-11-06T06:39:00.000-06:00

Ok, my internet has gotten REALLY crappy lately and I can't even sign onto AOL and check my freaken email to see if I had gotten anything new. >.< >.> Uh.. So yeah, I still have a goal to be a voice actress someday! I still have the dream of meeting Anza or Marina someday (maybe Anza will get invited to Anime Expo :3). So anyway, I could wish that I could of talked to the rangers, that would of made my day a WHOLE lot better! Well, my birthday was Saturday and it was on the Tennessee/LSU Game and LSU won. That didn't stand too well with my mom and my sister and me neither..But I had to pretend to be happy!! >.< >.> So yeah, look at the happy icon! :D Tehe! This is too cute! ^_^

So yeah, I'm going to go now! See ya! :)

EDIT: Ok, never mind, my mom fixed the problem! ^_^ So I'm happy now! ^^

Wow, I turn another year older..

2006-11-04T03:07:00.000-06:00

YAAAY!! Today is my 19th birthday!! Well, it's just that I'm turning another year older and that's just me being dorky! =P So yeah, more stuff about this and that.. damn elections.. Another scandal, blah blah blah.. Umm.. just something normal. o.o So, for MTAC (my local anime convention), I'm going to try the SeruMyu cosplay from the 4th act (which is Marina's era). I was going to do Anza's era in honor of her, but I think it had something to do with the costume. But, I'm willing to try out the SuperS Anza or SuperS Marina for my SeruMyu cosplay! ^^ Just enjoy the rest of the day, as I will too. Baaai! :)

Wow, oh wow, my god!

2006-11-02T03:08:00.000-06:00

Not only is my birthday coming up, but Anza's band is coming to New York! :) "How cool is that?" I can't believe it!! *AHEM* -.-() I'm sorry, I'm a dork. Actually, the best surprise that anyone would get would be to meet your favorite celebrity (for me, it would ether meeting Anza or Marina). That would be a treat. ^_^ I wouldn't try to fangirl when they DO get there, but I would introduce myself normally, like humans do when they meet a stranger for the first time. Not that Anza is a stranger, it's just that I'm a stranger to her. It's just one of those things I wouldn't mind doing, but I don't know if I have the chance to do. There's almost ALOOOOOT of people I wanna meet, but don't know if I have the chance to do it or not. Someday, I hope to meet them, because it would be a good oppertunity to meet them (especially if they're singers)! XD Bai bai, now! ^_^

Hey, another bored post from me! :)

2006-10-28T01:20:00.000-05:00

こんにちわ~~~!!! Well first of all, I would like to promote the sparklers (my lovely Chris Sabat Fanclub)! ^_^ Join "THE SPARKLERS ANYONMOUS!!" That would be much appreciated! =D If you're a SeruMyu fan and you wanna pay tribute to the Sailormoon Actress, join this group also! 運命のセラムン That would also be appreciated! But I do try my best!!! じゃあ~~ね!

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